Yesterday while was impatiently waiting for 136 to Niki's house i had some reflection abt what am i feeling at that time. It occurs to me that a lot of negative feeling happen due to the fear of future. Example, dreading of going Niki's house due to possibilities of boredom over there, the need to wake up earlier and travel longer. However all these are actually not true, its just an uneasiness of getting out of comfort zone.
There are much i can bring and do at her home.I enjoyed running there also and waking up earlier can be compromise with just sleeping early. It dont really matters. Another example is calling vendors, the anxiety and procrastination kick in with the fear of not getting the messages across or sounding stupid. Interesting that we had so many fears which go beyond our conscious thoughts.